Hi everyone so…its Sunday morning and I’m hard at work (minus the little distraction of writing my blog.) I’m going through a real period of change at the moment. It was the big 5 0 for me last year and there’s nothing like a milestone to make you think…and I did, I’ve done a lot of thinking and there have been a few realisations along the way. The biggest one for me is health, anyone who knows me, knows that I’m not the size zero kind of gal! With that in mind I trotted off to join a slimming club earlier this year and I have to say so far so good. I’m not going to preach to you because if your head isn’t in the zone, then your head just isn’t in it. This is my personal self help therapy, I hope making public my journey helps me stay on track and if I inspire someone along the way then that’s a bonus.
I wish these were my ankles but alas no, they are some that I have claimed off the internet.
So I turned up at the end of March this year, not to my local slimming group, as I didn’t have the confidence with people I know and who may or may not judge me but in one about 20 miles away from home. OK its in the town where Leon dances so it isn’t like 20 miles into the unknown but I felt safer there. The first time I got on the scales, I just felt repulsed by what I had unconsciously become, mentally countering this by telling myself that I was still 1lb lighter than the last time I joined. I’m not ready to share my number yet but I hope as my journey progresses that I might find the confidence to own up.
Anyhow, I’ve got lots to loose so the pounds are still dropping quite quickly and so far in five months I’ve lost 2 stone 10 lbs. I’m really pleased and feel completely different in myself; life is becoming more comfortable to physically bear. I know I could have lost more but I wanted to keep things real. My sacrifices so far are bread, butter and booze and I am eating so much fruit that I think I’m fermenting either that or composting!
This is an enormous step for me and I think I’ve confessed enough for this moment in time but I will come back and give you another instalment soon, I kept a few notes on my feelings at the beginning and I might pluck up the courage to share the secrets of a fat bird with you.